Hello world, my name is Fadwa. Sassy queen from Texas living in Nashville.
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I am not generally the type of girl who defines her worth in men. I do not need constant affirmation from the opposite sex to feel loved or wanted. I don’t crave attention from guys because I know that who I am does not revolve around having a relationship. That being said every now and then being single and completely invisible to guys does get old and I question God because I still haven’t mastered patience.
It’s not that I question if I’m beautiful enough or thin enough, I just question why He purposefully puts an anti-men shield over me. I am constantly around girls in relationships, girls who go on dates once a week, and girls who have several boys wanting to talk to them (it isn’t fun when you’re the girl who’s never even been on a real date). So anyways the past few days have just consisted of numerous comments and questions towards God about why I’m alone- but today I think He knew I really needed a good laugh involving my situation so this happened….
[I pull up to the taco bell drive through window]
Boy at the window: WELL HELLO CUTIE! LOOK AT YOU! (he wasn’t really yelling but it was a louder and excited tone
Me: hahahahahahahah hello.
Boy: (he hands me my food and I begin to roll my window up) Please come see me again at your earliest convenience, have a good night beautiful.
Now this guy wasn’t attractive but he also wasn’t being super creepy. It just made me laugh because I’ve felt unnoticed the last few days. I’m 100% positive God wanted a laugh out of it too. God is a funny man. It was just what I needed and it was great.
Right now this is everything. Absolutely everything.
People always say, “time heals all wounds”, but I’ve discovered that this is not true. God heals all wounds. Time has a way of making you regret things and miss certain parts of your life. God has a way of making you believe there is something better.
^ that was not written by me but I could not agree more.
I am so completely grateful for where I am in this exact moment. Things have gradually become so much better and I am truly thankful. Thanks God for helping me heal. You’re great.
“Be your own soulmate. Be your own hero. Don’t depend on anyone else to make you happy. At the end, it’s only you.”
Can I get an AMEN?!
Emery Allen (via cosmiclovetsunami)
My patience with God has been one of my biggest struggles in the past two years but I can honestly say I am now constantly living in excitement. God is doing things in my favor. He’s got this. So days are looking brighter with friends and love around me. I am the happiest.